There was a butterfly, and there still is,
That once flew through a window.
This is where the problems began.
You see the window, that was open,
Now isn't. Who closed it? Who knows?
But they have left and it was stuck.
For the first few days, it resisted
And flitted from wall to wall, trying
To break through them. It did not.
There came a day when it was tired.
A picture, mounted on the wall,
Became its place of rest.
A week had passed, then two.
Soon the time was infinite.
But then one day, it tried to fly.
That was when it discovered
That it couldn't fly any more.
It didn't stop trying.
Wings make the most horrible
Noise when they
What’s the point in caring in such a time as this?
Is there really any individual who can reach
into my head and yell out, “you must breathe!” I can’t
remember the last time I thought of something True,
because what is? Who is? No one wants to know.
I don’t want to know, so why
am I overcome by this furor?
I've always hated you because you denied me love
which has in turn lead me to do the same.
I love to lie alone in bed
and feel the rise of every breath.
I hope that it would calm me down.
Anxieties keep building.
I cry myself to sleep sometimes.
Hot tears impale my cheeks, stained red.
Woeful dread, impending doom:
All inside my insane head.
I thought that it would be all right.
The rise and fall meant I could live.
Even oxygen taunts my lungs.
Internal asphyxiation.
It's always a lie, nobody cares
until something imagined
tears at you skin, bleeding you dry.
I made it all up. It's all in my head.
I sacrifice the empathy by breathing my truth,
not knowing the death obtained from delusion
or the confusion of realities.
I did love you, or a form of you
created and moulded from a
misleading synapse: a glitch from the brain.
Unable to claim the hate that I feel
for fearing regret of being so wrong.
Is there a point to life if life is lies
or truth you cannot prove? I'm so unsure
of what has happened. I interoperate
all the time. Forever second guessing,
forever your opinion. Never independent.
Am I aliv
The centre of the
earth is just as warm
as a teenage heart.
But lava is not
half as deadly as
these tears. Your knowledge
Terrifies me. Did
I do this drilling?
Or did you burn a
hole? Secret screams in
mask of rivers of
blood. Rivers of blood
in mask of a massacre.
Self-inflicted homicide.
Spiralling holes.
exposure at its best.
People love to learn.
People drill these holes.
I wonder what you found
inside my vacant carcass.
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She makes me feel crazyand br
She makes me feel crazy
and broken and wrong. I
will never belong to
my own train of thought. Could
she be right? That so called
pariah. Will she ever
understand how my voice
lost its meaning: one summer
Only because I had the
strength to stay away.
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White peals caress the tipsof
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White peals caress the tips
of my extremities, that once,
hooked around a handle bar,
proposed a misdirection.
That day I soared as if
I have never lived before.
My infantile judgement (or lack of)
resulting in a momentary death.
You've etched a life-long mark.
Branded by my own compositions,
I stand upright on my
own two feet, yearning
to be adorned but knowing
this moment will replicate
without any such fulfilment.
I will always have this face
and I will always be so clumsy.
I cannot have a dreamless sleep.
I dream of bloodied sheets.
I'm harmed, insane, fumes choke my skin
from flames that burn the streets.
Awoken by the stilling stare
of something that was never there
the sheets are colourless.
My skin is free.
A single poppy on my wall.
I touch the red, nauseated.
I feel so guilty.
Observations now show me clearly how
delusions torture; cruel and full of hope.
How dare I seek such intimacy
from another unlike you who taught me
how to breathe in smoke and never die.
I can't promise you my eternity
when you won't shine the light of your eyes through
mine, though I am so tempted by the looks
I dream you give me. I dream them wishfully
and more frequently that I ever have before.
For once I'd like to have a love requited.